Part of my life, and my new year well wishes 2 you,

Life...

I really don't know what to say about it.

I'm all alone with my siblings minus one. My brother was here for the holidays, and he just left today. My parents are away too.

Eid was an alright experience this year. It was much more organized, and alot neater. I don't know a thing about Eid must dos. So i really didnt do much. In fact, i missed the Eid morning salam when my uncles/cousins go to Eid prayer, also i missed the slaughter of the sheep ritual, and all that comes along with it. Dad wasnt here so no one was there to make sure i was awake, plus my cousin(who usually wakes me up on Happy occasions) was in Canada. So really i slept through the morning. What a shame!

Other than that, i have been going to school, with no breaks. Sad indeed. We only got 3 days for Eid. That was it. But i'm waiting for the Jan holiday.

My school work has piled up, and i have made a decision that inshallah starting tomorrow i will be studying alot more seriously...no more laying off must dos.

As for the offers, i havent really looked into the NDB offer. But i'm still following up on the Oil company offer. I'm waiting for the meeting call! So pray for me that whatever is best happens.

Life has been great. I have been enjoying it so much alhamdullah. I have had this urge to go to Omra, its like Mecca is calling me. I never had such an urge before, so inshallah khair and i will keep it in mind. Maybe i will go after i graduate, in the summer.

I have missed all of you, and i have you all in mind, its just that i have been such a lazy happymoi...

Best wishes this coming year, may your dreams come true, and may you have a blessed year full with good deeds and happiness on all fronts. Forgive my faluts, and remember me in your prayers.

With lots of love,

Happymoi

Flu, School,Offer,Brother,Eid,Driving...everything!

I have been away from this blog since my b-day! Well lots has been going on, for one thing i got a cold, i guess its because of the change of sessons all of a sudden after the heat wave we had here! I'm always the first to catch a cold!
Alhamdullah, i'm doing much better, although still suffering from a cough and a running nose! I have decided to take today off school and do some serious studying and stay away from the cold weather. My school schedule changed again for the 3rd or fourth time. I'm back to having 4 school days (Sunday,Monday,Tuesday and Wednesday) so by not going to school today i will have 4 days off before going back for two days (Sunday and Monday) then its Eid Vacation. We get a day ahead of Eid off so thats good news! or so i heard!
I have alot of studying to do. I dont know how i got to this point of having to miss school to cacth up with work..part of the reason was due to my flu, i cant seem to function well when im sick even though im not the type that sleeps through my sickness. I continued going about my daily routine of even attending school...which could be part of why its taking me so long to heal!
I have got an offer through my last year's commercial law professor about working with NDB. I know that Mani works there too (right?), i dont know if im going to take the offer. They want me to work along while studying...My parents feel that i should foucs on my schooling, and im thinking i should check the offer and see if its worth some of my free time (it all depends on how flexiable they are)!
I dont know what, but all of a sudden i have become such an important person and everyone wants me to join....i know i should be happy and im but with the amount of school work i have i fear i may not be able to accept anything...I feel totally mixed up..I'm planning to pray istikrah and see where life leads me.... i feel saying no may be a decision i regret later on....So im in an endless cycle of confusion ...Life is sooooooooooooooo confusing, and every passing day i get another thing to add to this endless cycle....all i got to say is inshallah khair!
The most exciting news of all is that my brother will be joing us this Eid. I'm soooooooooooooooo excited!
Also, i have completed my driving lessons awhile back, and all im doing now is waiting for a car so i can take more lessons in it, before i hit the road and officially get my license!

Happpppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppy Eiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiid Everyone

and its been 24 wonderful years:D

Happpppppppppppppppppy is Happpppppppppppppppppppy:P

Yes. i have been alife for 24 years today. My memory drove me through time and while i was in the memory lane i remembered many things,,,,i took such a tour with a pleasent smile in my face..Yes i have done well. Alhamdullah i have tons to be greatful for...I have had a wonderful life, and i hope it continues to go that way......

I'm so pleased to say that today has been so wonderful, and i do hope that everyone is having a great time.....i have been so busy with driving lessons (took seven so far) and school so im away for a reason:D hope everyone is doing well. Keep me posted:P

Getting back to being Busy...

I started school this past Sunday. I woke up today at around 7am, and was about to get ready to go to class, but felt sick, and stayed home. Right now, im doing well wa alhamduillah!
How has school been?
Its intense from the start. Professors are running at the speed of light. Week one hasnt been over and i already have tons to get done. I have purchased most of my books/notebooks/study sheets but im yet to buy about 3 more textbooks, and a notebook or two.
How does it feel now that its my final year of law school inshallah?
Honestly, i feel no different, its like any other school year..and although many people who pass by my group say "awa e7ni fe sana raba3a", it just doesnt sink in, it feels as if im just starting the school journey.
Other non school related news:
I have gotten all my driving stuff done, just need to phone the lady and start taking lessons. I'm planning to call today inshallah and take a lesson tomorrow...please pray no more papers are required! On another note, im invited to this gathering, but im not sure if im going to go, i guess it depends on how i feel closer to the time of getting ready. Now i better head to the kitchen and have breakfast, cuz i havent eaten a thing! Hope everyone is doing well....life is going great, and im back to being busy again!

An Amazing day,*Mashallah*

Last night i had a blast.
My cousins and i were sitting around doing nothing, and all of a sudden it poped up in our mind to have a movie night, along with a BBQ and a sleepover. The plan was to watch an Egyption movie,although such movies arent my type, i agreed. Majority always wins. Somehow, we couldnt get hold of the movie everyone wanted to watch, and so we decided we'd watch anything on MBC 4. Material Girls was on, and so we watched it. I'm going to be honest, it was quiet a bore. I think its produced for those ages nine to 12 max. But the mood of the gatering was soooooooooooooooo totally awesome. I havent had that much fun in such a long time. We BBQ at my aunt's balconey. While doing that, we played pranks on each other, and i was laughing so hard all through the night. We had a wondeful Mashroom soup which my sister made. It was YUUUUUUUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMY...and we ordered various BBQ salads from Abu Ali, and ofcourse we had chicken & lamb BBQ. Everything tasted soooooooooo good mashallah. I ate so much, and drank too much pop. I was soooo loud..something which i havent done for a long time tooo.sang,jumped,acted crazy,i was the starter of the party..i was sooooooooo me...while we were having dinner around the table at the balcony fireworks were in play. It was soooooooooooo nice. Then we each took showers, changed into our comfy PJs and on the night went...we couldnt eat the sweetes at night because we were so full, and so we postponed that to the morning, we had our sweets with cappacino...the sweets were yuuuummy as well....Food was great, the company of my cousins was soooooo much fun, and the night was truely a hit!

Now i'm all ready to start school tomorrow. COming up: an entry dedicated to my bro, with pics:D Stay tuuuuuuuuuuuned:D

Libyan Day of Mourning

Libyan Day of Mourning:


In commemoration of the Libyan Day of Mourning, the Goverment of Libya has decreed that on Friday, October 26, internet and international phone calls will be cut off nationwide form 6am to 6pm. All Libyan Airline flights are cancelled,although other international airline travel may be permitted. International and national ground and marine travel operated by Goverment of Libya-owned companies are also cancelled. The Day of Mourning commermorates the expulsion by Italy 1911 of a number of Libyans.

P.S: Refrence: I got this msg from the American Embassy In Libya.

Happy is Back:-)

I feel fine today -Al-hamdulillah!

The weather has improved- Al-hamdulillah!
Yesterday, i went out, not to change my mood but rather to do a "wajeb". I had to go see my cousin who had an appendix sugery three days ago, well four days ago today. Shes doing well, so thats good. Before going to her, i went and checked on grandma, she was right next door to my kali's house. So i went there sat, freshened up, had my glass of pineapple juice, and refused to take any bakalva, as i got sick from seeing it in every house, every where on Eid. Then i waited for magrib so grandma could break her fast, then we got ourself ready and went together to my kali's house. It was an alright visit, and i was happy i did my "wajeb"...i'm the type the like to go rightaway for any occasion, dont like to postpone my visits...my cousin was pleased to see me, and i was happy that she was happy.

I have finally gotten the first stage of my driving papers done: that is my criminal record clearence (i.e that happymoi has not commited any crime)...now i have to call the driving agency, i was planning to do so today, but decided to postpone it cuz my sister suggested i contact a lady she knows and comapre. So will do that inshallah. I'm so happy things have been going smoothly. Al-hamdullillah!

I have also completed reading the Innocent Man by John Grisham, and i thought how ironic the end was. A guy was saved from death row cuz of his innocence, last mintue, only to die of a disease later on. Very sad indeed, but was a good read.

Now i'll leave you all with this survey:

1. What time did you get up this morning? 8:40am (then went to sleep until 12)
2. Diamonds or Pearls? Both
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? 1408/Rush Hour 3
4. What is your favorite TV show ? Right now, i have none
5. What is your middle name ? A
6. What did you have for breakfast? Kitkat, just had it now
8. What foods do you dislike? Makaronna bel bosla & Kosber
9. What are your favorite chips?Jalapenoo crunchie (i want one now:( theres none here)
10. Favorite CD at the moment? none
12. Favorite sandwich? Taco (could i consider them sandwiches?)...crispy chicken, fahita chicken, BBQ chicken sandwiches..
13. What are characteristics you cannot stand?show offs, arogance, self-righteosness, close minded ppl
14. What are your favorite clothes? Pjs
15. If you could go anywhere on vacation where would you go? An Island, somewhere..or maybe South Africa
16. Where would you want to retire? Canada
17. Favorite time of day? Night
18. Where were you born? USA
19. Favorite team? Cancuks (Hockey), Italy & Brazil (Soccer),
20. What is your favorite sport to watch? SOCCER & Tennis &Hockey
21. Who do you think will not send this back? blogspot it ppl
22. Who do you think will send this back first? someone emkased
23. Coke or Pepsi? Marinda
24. Beavers or ducks? Beavers hehe
25. Are you a morning person or a night owl? night owl
26. Pedicure or manicure? manicure, i dont wear open toe shoes much.
27. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with anyone? waiting for the right moment to do that.
28. What did you want to be when you were little? Computer programmer/ Lawyer
29. What is your best childhood memory? school days back in the emarat
30. Ever been to Africa ? lol..im in it!
31. Ever been toilet papering? dumb Q
32. Been in a car accident? Nope ALhamdullillah
33. Favorite day of the week? Tuesdays
34. Favorite restaurant? too many to name, and few in Libya
35. Favorite flower? Roses...
36. Favorite ice-cream? so traditional..vanilla and chocolate
37. Favorite fast food restaurant? All, cant say no to fast food
38. How many times did you fail your driver's test? haven't taken it yet *wish me luck*
39. From whom did you get your last e-mail? from facebook letting me know that some one wrote on my fun wall
40. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? dunnoo
41. Bedtime? these days, amm late very late..till morning!
42. Who are you most curious about their responses to this? everyone
43. Last person you went to dinner with? cousins
44. What are you listening to right now? nothing...
45. What is your favorite color? blue ...apple green
46. How many tattoos do you have? none
47. How many are you sending this Email to? im blog spotting it.
50. Favorite #? 1 :P

Ahh! Life..things here n there:(:(

I'm feeling so down! I have no explanation as to why or what. I'm really tired of the routine, i'm sick of how things are at the moment. I'm so bored. I have nothing to do, and not in the mood for anything. All im doing these days is staying up late, waking up late, and really doing nothing useful...well..other than reading the Innocent Man by my favourite authour John Grisham, the book is good so far but the timing is soooo wrong....you just dont read about injustices of the justice system when you are feeling down..and the thing is it is John Grisham's first non-fiction book so really that is adding mostiour to clay!!!"zaydet al teen bala"
All I want is to be in an Island somewhere far away from here--alone..i want to have time for myself..Every Ramadan & every Eid i get this feeling, maybe because i miss the way my Eids/Ramadans were..but its been three years, my Eids should have been redefined..but they havent ... im still thinking about the community gatherings,the lazer tag games,the parties,ubc gatherings, king gorge park, bowling and friends,friends,friends,friends...I think of how life is passing by and how little i have accomplished in the past 3 years since my arrival to this place. Dont get me wrong, i love it here so much, and there are things about it here that make it so special but...there are lots of buts....the way my family has choosen to live here isnt really suiting me,
I have been riased to be ruled by my faith and nothing else. Culture never directed how i acted, or what i did....now look what i found here: 3 days of Eid, no other food is eaten other than beans sauce (fasolya/and bazelya)...there is this belief in my grandma's head of some sort..what the hell...really what the hell...sheno hada...thats totally non sense!!!I have a tough time accepting things in such lines and boy they are tooooooooo many...if my religion doesnt prohibt me from doing something why should i? now that part of me no one seems to accept, and the thing is i dont really care...cuz im not ready to live with non sense...thats really a bed3a!!!

By nature, im a very active person, and since i landed foot in this place i have done so little...Ok my future is bright here...I mean i have tons of luring offers. I got an offer from the main oil company here which includes paid langauge courses/work contract/and a scholarship abraod, also i have a chance of getting a scholarship abroad from my university, and a chance to be a student teacher (a mo3eda)...things are pouring on me and i dont know what im to do...i feel lost! I need to think through things and really figure out what i want to do...but still with all this i feel if i was still where i was i would have done alot more.

I have made a decision to start driving, well step number one is to take driving lessons, so far im still in the process of getting my papers done...im so afriade i will pull back...the traffic is so choatic and im not sure if i can handle it, but really i must. So much depends on my driving. I have been wanting to take french courses to upgrade my french(which i forgat so much of probably) but havent been able to because of transporation issues...ah lots on my mind, and im just tyeping my thoughts regradless of order..just whatever comes to my mind!

Maybe i feel the way i feel because of the many decsions i have to take,
Maybe because im soon going to start my last year of law school and the question of what next: wont leave my head...maybe because im used to having everything planned ahead and this time its not easy to plan ahead....i have the question of: where should i do my masters? here or abraod? should i take the offer from the oil company? or should i just accept the scholarship from my univeristy? my parents want me to do the latter as they say i should take something that would keep me free...cuz if i take the oil company offer i may have to sign a contract and stay with them for a period of time...where as the uni scholarship means im free to do whatever i wish...ahhh lots of thinking...and i remain so lost among the many options i have...

For now i just want to party, or do anything fun...i need to take my mind of thinking so hard...i dont know why i always expect myself to be prefect at everything..i know no one is prefect but why doesnt this thought sink in..no matter how much i accomplish i always say i could have done much better....now even with my school results...i got top student, and after awhile all i was saying to my self was: my average could have been higher...why do i expect so much of myself?? my parents are not very demanding of us, but i grew up very demanding of myself....and i have no explanation for it either!

Done for now..hope tomorrow will be better for me!

Happy Eid: Eid Mubarak :

Happy Eid everyone.

May Allah Accept all of your good deeds,fasting and prayers:) Ameen!

A not so "Fal7ah" turning into one for a DAY:P

I have always thought of myself as a typical libyan girl! I still do, but reality seems to be contradicting my thoughts!

Ok, you are losing the point. What im trying to say is that, almost every libyan girl i know knows how to cook by the 5th grade if not any ealier. For me, i'm garding this year and i can barely fry an egg! now here is where the word "ma3kola" comes into play! Yes it is possible!!

well well well..my mom is not very demanding of me or us for the matter. If we feel like cooking so be it, if not then so what. I was never a kitchen person. I was never this or that. Basically, im no house wife ...

Then again, even libyan girls who dont know how to cook rarely admit it. Their moms would be bragging about how fal7ahat their daughters are when in reality it doesnt have to be true. They call it "sell'm method". Ok whatever!

I guess im so used to the use the kettle, boil the water, get ur lipton tea bag ready...yes tea is all set ppl. just pour the water, add suger to ur liking and as many tea bags as you wish..thats what i call a freedom to drink the tea the way you like it..if i cook it and serve it then you have no say..and im a very democratic person...if your hungry, feel free to make your own sandwich! you know your way by now....yeah...thats the way i'm...which really doesnt suite the community im living in...how will i ever survive with a house of my own?! ouch!!

Back to what i was saying. So what got me in the kitchen today? with no one asking me to? i'll be honest. Yesterday, my brother who is in grade 8 decided to make a cake! yeah what has the world come into? im not too sure. I mean what has gotten into my brother's head? so he made a chocolate cake, using the ready mix under the suprevsion of my eldest sister. Now my guy cousins were too busy to nag at me about it yesterday "thank god"..so i decided to save "my face" and make a chocolate cheese cake, yes i made it right from scratch. Its all ready. I'm only waiting for the house gardner to get me Nutella, so i could place it on top of my cheese cake which is in the fridge cooling down! I actually got off bed around 12:30pm horray for me! Stop rolling your eyes. Thats an accomplishment. I mean i wake up later then that usually. Ok now you are getting me alright and thanks for celeberating the moment...this waking up system is only on Ramadan. But soon, i'll get back to my 6am rise hour!

So finally, i made something besides hot chocolate on Ramadan. My cousins are already starting to do "bo7oor" to ward of the evil eye! haha!!

Thats a glimpse of things at my end! Hope everyone is doing well. Please remember me in your prayers as it is the last week of this month! I will not forget you all in my prayers.

Last but not least: :) b-day bro (gr.8) as it was his b-day yesterday! May Allah guide him, and protect him bro......

BACK TO THE KITCHEN:)

Choco & Me

YUMMYYYYYY

I know what you are thinking! Forgive me please for posting this cake but i must. My little sister, yes my litte sister made a chocolate cake. She woke up so early and made it, and its in the frige, why did i have to check on the frige? Now i cant wait for magrib. I'm not very patient to start with. I act like a little kid: mom when is magrib? amta al magrib? Then my sister added to that by making this chocolate cake so early in the morning.

I woke up 1pm and the smell of the chocolate cake is sweeping through the house. I had to go back to sleep or something would happen to me. Chocolate cake isnt just the only reason. For some reason i dont feel too well today & im not sick or anything. I feel so dizzy. I dont feel hungry but i feel dizzy. Now im better,but i feel that my head is so heavy.

Yesterday, i went to my grandma's house, i had a blast. I just love visiting my grandma. She was so thrilled to see me & my siblings. I love you granny! I also saw my aunt there which was nice.

I miss my brother tons. Two days ago we had an online webcam talk and i could see tears in his eyes. Walahi i miss him halba/wajed! We all miss you bro. We talked about you at granny. We are just not used to parting with each other. Dont worry bro, we'll visit you inshallah soon. You just foucs on your school, and take good care of yourself. Cousin S will be joing him soon. So hopfully that will make things easier for my bro.

Hope you all are having a blast!

Welcome dad, N Goodbye bro

Things have gotten a little busy with me lately!
Yesterday my daddy came home from Omraa-taqballa Allah Dad. He said his flight was so close to actually crashing, him and my uncle were together, and i have never seen them as happy to be alife and well. Alhamdullah 3ala salama! Just hearing how their flight was gave chills through my spine.

Then today, it was time to say good bye to my brother. Usually our faith is one, if we move we move together, but now with everyone getting older things have become so much different. My bro who is almost 3 years younger is moving to London to finish his last year of Business admisntration. We'll miss him dearly. I cant imagine how my life would be without him around. He was filling in for my dad everytime dad was away. He does everything for the house. Now all i got to say, i wish you a safe trip, and best of luck on your studies. i'm gonna miss you tons!

Other than that, i have only been out once all of this Ramadan. It was a nice thing to do for a change!

I have a plan to go visit my grandma from my mom's side so hopfully i will do that soon. I really miss her! We didnt see each other since Ramadan started. My bro was gonna take me with him on his goodbye tour yesterday but then my mom told me it would easier if he went alone. And she promised she'd tagg along with me to granny, and my aunts soon. Cant wait:)

I wish everyone a happy day;
ahhhh: when is magrib gonna come along?!!!

Our Ramadan,my laziness and story of survival:P

I have become sooooooooo lazy! I need school to get my act together hehe! Well not really. I really dont want school to start yet. Not in Ramadan for sure. I need my hours of sleep,my time to read Quran, and sleep again.I need the stress free time! Good news: i'm getting all that cuz my school wont start until after Eid. Thats the way law school is. THANK GOD!

My family during Ramadan isnt like any other and i mean it! We dont go out at all (well almost never). We dont stay up late either. We pray Trwawee7 all together at home, and sleep right after. I dont really sleep right after but the mood at home is just quiet and sleepy. No visitors, at least none so far! People just know our routine and think we are soo not normal! I dont blame them. Today my cousin from mom's side was supposed to come, but she text me early this morning saying she cant make it. The night before she phoned(i asked her to come & insisted-i miss her) and shes like happymoi: are you sure i can come cuz u know my parents wont come back to pick me up until like 1,1:30am. I replied cousin dont worry, i'll stay up with you..she replied: are you sure you wont be counting the mintues for me to leave...lol i seriously wont. Its not me that created the routine its the way my parents are!
Day number one of the month of Ramadan was such a toughy, i was barely able to walk towards the last half hour before mag'rib adan!I'm no even exaggorating. You see i didnt wake up for suhoor that day (as a matter of fact i never wake up for suhoor) i get my glass of water in my bed just for the baraka of suhoor, and i didnt bother having dinner the night before Ramadan started so i was so close to fainting and stayed in bed till it was time to break my fast. Its the same story every year on my first day of Ramadan. I just act like a little kid, and start asking when is magrib when is magrib!!
I havent cooked anything with exception to frying boreek the past two days. Other than that i just basically do nothing. I'm such a not fala7a! Thats the painful truth!

Ramadan Mubarak :-)

Happy Ramadan EVERYONE

Thoughts Dubai:)

Life is but a journey, that is so true. It passes by so quickly,it is as if time flys.Well is flying consdered fast? Its been 3 days for me here, and it really feels as if i have just arrived! I guess maybe thats why this analgoy exists. Every journey has a begining, and life too has a beegining. Ok whats goiing on happymoii? i dont know,im so relaxed,,i mean im typying from the comfort of my bed,looking stright aheead at thee tv plasma which functions as both a tv and a computer screen...anyways,the point is reflection time is best done during ones vacation...youu just blend having fun with relaxtion...ahh, my bed feels so ccomffortable, room service is good,no chores to be done, ahh whaat if our life wass like that all thee ttime? nah i wwouldnt wwant it to be so, u kknow why cuz i wwouldnt feel the joy of having time off eveerything....now i feel blessed,well i have alwas felt blessed,but someehow, wheen you aree on a vacation you always feel eeven moree so blessed...but u kknow whats weird? is that when i c the ppl serving us i keep thinking how do theyy feel? imeean them working on a hhotel theey can only dream of sleeping in,they can barely offored to live, let all think of a vacation....i keep aasking, does he/shee have kids? does he/she resent us?do they think its unfair that they are serving us? but then i tell myself that wee eeach have aa job in this world, and no onee iis far from being the server instead of the reciver of the service....so while being served i shhouuld only treat the service ppl wwithe respect i wwouuld want to have if i ever eended up ddoing their job.....foor the maaintime...i sshall eenjoy dubai,my vacation homee for thee passt three yeears n every yyeear i come i experience the changes....its been awesomee so far,,,lots to do but wont rush to anythng...afteerall its my ttime off:)

Vacation Time (YAYAY)

I have been really busy lately...and today will be yet another busy day!!!

This past friday i was in a zarda,i.e picnic! I had a good time, and it was a change of the routine cuz instead of going with my dad's side of the family i went with my mom's side of the family. Sunday, i went to a gathering at my uncle's place, i had fun there and i met a friend whom i havent seen since i was in 8th grade. Yesterday, i had two of my university friends over,and i had a splendid time! Today, i have one of my friends coming over, and tomorrow i'm out of here! You read it right:)

YES.....UAE here i come:)

Goodbye tripoli for now, its our vacation time:) I'm so excited...I'm going to miss everyone im sure. I will try to blog from there if i got a chance. I just thought i let you all know so no one would be worried over my disapperance:P

Ksad.....& Toni Macguire

I don't know why i feel that summer is one of the busiest seasons for me. I seem to have too little time for anything, yet I'm always complaining of "ksad". Ksad is a common Libyan word, it is often used during the summer, because as busy as things get, there is always a room for --I'm bored, it is boring!When you have so much to do, the word ksad shouldn't be used but then i use it anyways. It is really ksad!!

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I have finished two books this previous week, by Toni Macguire, Don't Tell Momy & When Dad Comes Home and its her getting personal about her years of being molested by her own father. I was inspired by her courage, her ability to look at the brighter side, her determination and her hard work. Many times, when i read for her i felt like kicking him, i don't even want to think of him as her father, as he doesn't deserve being one. The word father is too precious for ppl of his kind. At times, i felt i was reading fiction because my brain just didn't want to disgust the idea that such a thing took place, i wanted to hold Toni, and hug her during her younger years when everyone else was rejecting her for what she has gone through, when her own doctor looked in her eyes and gave her the nasty look(when her own father got her pregnant at the age of 14), and i wanted to be her friend when everyone rejected her. I wanted to give her shelter, to pull her out from the monster she lived with. But i didn't exist then, and even if i had what is there to assure me that i would have taken anything different then those surrounding her? I kept imagining myself being Derek or her teacher would i have helped her? I kept asking myself? or would i have been so rejecting like everyone else?

Who did Happymoi meet?

Yesterday i woke up ealier then my usual very late wake up rotiune! I had lunch with family friends and friends from my canada days (it was like a get together between our Libyan friends living in canada,and those libyans who used to live in canada at our family friend's house). I felt that i was in canada for a day. As i expected i had a wonderful time, if i could i would have slept over:) It was so much fun. I met Maysoon's & Damoon's mom at this mutual friend of ours. She came after lunch though, and it was nice getting to see her. I spent my day there, well from dhur time to 9:30pm then it was time for us to be at grandma cuz it was "mawsem rajab", having such a traditional grandma meant we had to have dinner at her house along with everyone else, and so we spent the rest of the day there,then it was time to sleep, and we each headed home.

Meeting Meral's grandmother, kept me thinking --really what a small world afterall! Shes such a sweet women, and i really enjoyed being with her and everyone else. It was really out of this world spending time with people i thought of and still do as family, people who were part of my beloved past,and are still part of my present,and hope they will be part of my future as well. They were really family to me when i lived abraod,and when i saw them yesterdya its as if i saw my sisters who i havent seen for awhile. I had a wonderful time...I love this family friend of ours (the one who invited us) so much, and at her house i feel so part of it, i could if i want anything get up and go striaght to the kitchen and get it, although yesterday i didnt need to do that but we are that close. It was nice spending the day with them....

Random Pics from My London Trip :)Part I

Yes,
Late? I know, but better late then --------!!! Enjoy:)

More later:)

I had a blast!

(My gift to Damoon was da one above)
All i can say is Mashallah..Mashallah..Mashallah..
--Mashallah--
I'm speechless!!!
Damoon was gergous,beatuiful...mashallah...I wish all goes well for you today:P and for the many days,months and years to come:)

I had a blast:) I was at the hall( salah) first one,at around 8:45pm(yes im a maw3eed girl). I waited at the enterence for the girls but no one showed up so i decided to go inside and pick a table. I did that. Then Ema showed up, i was setting on my table and she was setting on hers (the table next to me) she looked at me, i looked at her, she had a feeling it was me,but didnt go any further. Piccolina came at around 10pm (girl you and your sis made me wait forever) she was our group collector!! She decided to phone me to make sure that i was me. Our conversation went as follows (Happymoi? are you wearing blue? me yes where are you? I'm right here,) tada..we met, hugged,kissed and finally a face to my dear bloggers...Romana was the last to pop up, she got lost on the way hehe..Ma3leshi sister,im glad we met............all of the bloggers i met i fell in love with,i still have to see Hibo,and that way i would have met all female blogegrs...Inshallah many more meetings to come, hibo,n lebeeya you too for sure inshallah...:):):):) im really looking forward to seeing everyone very soon inshallah:)
I did leave at around 11:10pm, i really wished i could stay more,but it was a deal i had with my bro, hes taking me,but coming to pick me up before 11:30pm. My mom tried to get him to give me more time but she didnt mannage, I saw 2 of my friends (amazing..alhamdullah i had a blast).. As i was leaving i saw 2 of my friends from med school, but i only got to say goodbye to them cuz i saw them when i was leaving. I saw my mom's friend who is my friend's mom...

I met Romana - I love you sweetheart,
I met piccolina- I love you sweetheart,
I met Maiuna-I love you sweetheart,
I met Ema-I love you sweetheart,
I met Damoon- Ofcourse, i did go to her and congratulate her in person me and romana:) Mashallah 3aleek habooba:)
I met Meral- Shes sooooooo cute mashallah,maybe maysoon has a pic of Meral. She looked adorable!
I met Romana's friend-I love you sweetheart
and ofcourse they met me:):):)
I saw Maysoon but didnt meet her as she was really busy with her sis

Lebeeya wasnt able to make it:( she really wanted to come,but something came up,

Overall, i had an amazing time:):):) Best wishes to you two, Damoon & Dastars

Alf Mabrook Damoon & Dastars

HAPPY MOI CONGRATULATES Damoon & Dastars

It is Damoon's wedding today. I'm totally excited for her:) I hope and pray that everything goes smoothly for her and her husband. They deserves all the best, and i would like to say in this happy occasion:-

"بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما وجمع بينكما بخير"

Damoon & Dastars

That hurts :(

The below msg wouldnt have hurted me if i didnt care about its sender. The truth is, im not able to sleep as a result of it. My question to the sender of this e-mail although the person made it very clear they dont want anything to do with me is what have i done? I will grant you your wish and wont contact you anymore. But i want you to know through ( anyone reading my blog who may have firgured the person out) that i have nothing against you. I will forever cherish the moments you stood by me. I do hope that you clarify why and what happened? But if you dont wish to do so, little i could do. I dont have a problem with saying sorry if i ever wronged you but so far its not clear to me this sudden change just an e-mail ahead things were fine. What happened between that e-mail and this one below?

"My very Dear Happy Moi, Can I ask you here and now Please do not contact me no morenot now, not next week, not next year - No more please I hope I hear nothing more from you, or about you Good luck Best wishes And that’s it From now on, your future e-mails sent to me will automatically enter the junk folder Best wishes"

I fail to believe that im dear if thats what you have to say to me. You left me wondering just like many people before if what we had -what ever it was- was real? I dont know if knowing that you hurted me makes you feel good, but you did. I dont know what my fellow bloggers have to say in this regard. I'm honestly telling you i have nothing against the writer of this e-mail, and this was all sudden. This person doesnt want me to get in contact, and i will respect the wishes of this person. I did in fact delete the address because i was told any effort would go to waste. I have no other channels of contact to try and figure whats going on. I'm hurt beyond belief. To add to all this, today has already been a not so good day for me, and this just finished it up for me. I dont know what to say, but i need to know if anyone has any thoughts or even questions for me. I'm ready to answer anything because i really need to know what would make a person do this?.

HELP ME OUT:P ya lahwiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Yesterday i ended up sleeping at my aunt's house. You know how libyan aunts are, if you come to their house they never want you out. She swear "walahi ela ma etji etbati alyum"--which means you have to come sleep over tonight...i was left out of options so i thought ok i'll go after all the guests leave and stay there until breakfast time then leave right away...planning ..planning...little did i know that plans are never functionable in my dear society, as i i was about to leave my aunt make another "libyan swear" -walahi low matg3deesh tet3'adi ma3ad etklameni wa la ani 3amtek wa la na3rfek...which means for my non-libyan speakers "i swear to god if you dont stay over for lunch, i wont be talking to you, and i wont be your aunt anymore...So i had no choice, i stayed...Then kalas i was gonna explode if they dont let me out, cuz i wanted to take go home, take a shower and rest...So i told my aunt that i must leave cuz i feel yucky and i didnt bring my showering stuff, she was baout to send her son to bring me my stuff but i insisted i go then after i rest if i was able to wake up i'd come...mentally, i had the plan of not going back but i had to say i'd try or else i wont be able to leave her house. So alhamdullah im home!!! I had a nice time, but really when i need to go home--- i need to go home!!! Still family gatherings, and slowly im losing it!! HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Libyan Social Life, is it fair?

Romana asked for an update, and so here goes it: I have alot to write about but so little time. I have been spending so much time all over the place. It is been more then a week worth of going out every single day, sometimes twice a day. Today, i have to go to my dad's sister's house. So really things are so busy. I cant wait until its time to have time for myself. Growing up i missed all of these things but now as wonderful as they are i do feel they are many times more then i can handle!!! I have alot of things to say as a result of these gatherings, and the conversations we had but for now, i just wanted to say that im ok..Latest-- my uncle and his son( from Germany) leave today..Wish you two a safe trip home.. Slowly everyone is getting ready to go back *home?!*....life here goes on, and my question remains is the Libyan social life fair to one's self??

I want to say goodbye to u my flu..for it is family time:P

I have been dealing with the dreaded flu for about five days now if not more; i lost count. Alhamdullah, i have gotten much better. It is still there but not as severe, i have what i call the aftermath of the flu, the cough,headache,and the red nose:P

What have i ( happymoi) been up to?
The past few days have all been about family gatherings. They are still about that and will be for awhile...some are back here for a visit,some were away for health reasons. Yesterday i was at my aunt's place(my dad's sis). She just came back with her husband and my grandma from Tunisia. Her husband, had two surgeries there. He is doing well, and im happy for him and the family. Now there is my other aunt's husband who is still in Tunisia undergoing treatment for the strok he had, he isnt back yet but we are waiting for him..(see i told you Tunisia equates hospital for almost all Libyans,thats why when they hear someone is in Tunisia the first thing they say is inshallah la bas). Also, my mom's side of the family has been about family get together. It is been hectic for us, having to juggle between both famlies..its good we are still sane!we r trying to make sure we are present every where... Today, i have to go back to my aunt's place, and spend the day there. Tomorrow, i have to go to my mom's side of the family and have lunch with everyone at my mom's sister's house, then come back to my dad's sis's house in the evening *sigh*. My mom's sis have invited all of us and my uncle who is here for a visit for lunch. In the midest of all this i have to keep up with my friends. I must say i havent seen any of them since school came to an end on June18th, i have only been talking to them through the phone. Its been really crazy, and i hope they dont get angry at me for not spending anytime with them....it feels like im running a marthoon....ahhh....

**Last but not least :) b-day dear bro **

Welcome Home Uncle & Cousin

Two days ago, my uncle came to Libya. His last visit was in 2004, the year we moved here. His 2004 visit was his first visit to Libya since he was 17 years old. He has two sons,and is married to a German lady. Both of his sons came to Libya at around year 2004 for the first time in their life,and they liked it here. The only problem is that they dont speak any Arabic. They only know few words, but the good thing is they both speak in addition to German, English. It would be a real problem if they didnt speak English. As no one in the family speaks German with exception to their own father and mother!! Both of my cousins say they are amazed at the kindness and welcome they have recieved..I reply "come on you are one of us"..i think thats a wonderful part of the Libyan community we dont treat people as outsideres regardless where they come from...so ofcourse my cousins are even more so part of us..

We were all gathered at grandma to welcome them,this time my uncle came with one of his sons. It is nice having them here:) Welcome home you two:)

It is been 3 years 2day!!!!

Three years ago,today, my family and i moved to Libya. I remember on my tranist stop in London, back then, that i wrote an e-mail to my friend complaning how would my parents do this to me, complaning about many things, about my schooling,my friends,the turn my life was about to take. Little did i know that although its tough,i'd get used to it. I'd love it. Well, love was already there. Its Libya. I was Libyan despite all the paper work,despite all the school records that state that im otherwise,despite my country of birth,despite all the facts. I was Libyan, a true Libyan.

It wasnt easy, i didnt expect it to be easy, until this day, at times i feel the urge to pack my bags and go back to the life i got used to...Many times...Then i think, well it was about time that i got to know my family,my country,my people. It is about time that i experience life in this land....somehow in between i found joy in living here.. sure it is not easy, sure i miss it over there lots, but at times i think maybe it was about time. Who knows.

Here goes my results....tada

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Me, the Tourist:)

--I miss it already--

My trip to London was first and foremost for work experience! Most of my days were spent at work and i had very little time off. In the contrary, my mom, and brother were there to chill and relax. Having said that, i had in mind few places i wanted to visit, especially after the car tour my dad's friend took us in. I wanted to see Madame Tussuad's museum, and Harrods. These two i really wanted to see, as we say in Libyan "if i didn't see them a Palm tree would have risen on my head". My mom didn't want to tag along with me as she wanted to get some shopping done..my dad's friend's daughter wanted to hang out with me and i thought this would be a good chance for us to catch up on everything since i spent very little time with her due to work..... I wouldn't go alone either not because I'm afraid but rather because fun=a minimum of two people:) So i was pleased that she too had in mind going out with me on my last day. I asked her to come early and so she came to my place at 10am. I thought good timing. I had a good night sleep. I slept until 9am. Then woke up, got ready and waited for my friend. She arrived we took the bus to Baker street. We located the museum and WOW, the cue, as referred to by the British was LONG..i call it line up, it was sooooooo crowded! We waited until about 1:30pm to get in. Finally we got our tickets and got in. I was so excited to see everyone and be me. I missed the real me. I'm an outgoing person, i would jump up and down, i don't have "act ur age" theory, although when I'm in Libya i try my best to, but usually, the real me wins. So i took pictures with a lot of the stars,leaders....i was crazy....but i had a blast....I took some pics specifically for the blog, and I'll have a pic entry inshallah as soon as i get the connector:) The museum was so crowded. It was amazing walahi!! It felt like one of those wild parties (not that i ever been to one:P) it was fun. The funny thing that happened to me while i was there was when i thought that the statue of a journalist with a camera was real, you see i noticed her, so i turned around and i said sorry cuz i was standing in front of her...only to realize after few minutes later that she wasn't real. I started laughing with my friend hysterically!! God..i keep laughing at myself every time i remember!!! We saw everything we could,acted proper with the crowd and left after we finished our tour of the museum. Then my friend suggested that we got to family square (well it has a different name) i cant recall. To Londoners help me out (its where lots of birds are) loooooooooooool. That's the best i could describe it! Yea yea its what u r thinking! Almohem. We took pics there. I was on a mission, protecting my friend's water bottle from the guys collecting garbage, because every time i put it on the floor next to me or next to the stand near the fountain someone trys to grab it. Actually in one of the pics i was trying to stop the guy. I laugh everytime i see it. Then we ate at McDonald's. After that, we headed to Harrods. YEAH. I was so thrilled to have gotten the chance to visit it, again, i was trying to protect myself from growing a Palm tree over my head. Harrods was my number one must see. That might sound odd to everyone especially with the fact that i hate shopping. I think the reason for my visit was because there was so much publicity about the mall and i wanted to see it. I saw the memorial for Diana and Dodi. I couldn't help though but feel sad that such a memorial would be set for Dodi by his own father especially the wine glass....i mean we are always told to remember the best of those who pass away not the worst "odkro ma7asena mawtakum". Well, i took a pic of the memorial as well. I took a picture of the Harrods green sofa as well. I will post them all inshallah as soon as i get the phone connector (again, i don't know when I'll get it). I toured around Harrods and there was a protest against fur which i guess are the essence of many of the products Harrods sells. I took a photo of the protest as well. Then it was seven pm. Kalas, my energy was off, i needed to get home. I got to my place freshened up, chatted a bit with my friend then she had to head home because her house is an hour away. Then i stayed home and waited for my mom...she came at around 8pm...I asked her to tag along with me to Costa for a hot chocolate which i have been wanting to have all week, but didn't until my last day. Before our coffee we went quickly to shops, got chocolate for my cousins,and a cute dress for my cousin's baby girl, and a book for me (The Devinchi Code-yes i haven't read it YET). That was the end of my last day in London. I had a blast. I will forever remember the tour my dad's friend took us to on my second or third day and also will remember my last day there, and for sure my work experience and the warm welcome i have received from everyone there. I laughed and walked like i have never done before. My trip was amazing!!! Alhamdullah!!! I would so go again:)

On the day of my trip bk home, i purchased 3 John Grisham books(The Client,The innocent man,The Pelican Brief), and two Toni Macguire Books (When Daddy comes home, Don't tell Mommy). I ended up spending around 40 pounds on books. I would have spent more if i got the chance but i had to check out. I think i have an obsession with books. I like buying and reading them more so then buying clothes....my sister thinks I'm nuts!!

P.S: Pics to come when i get the connector back:)

Was i sent to the gulf?

It was 7/7/07 (Saturday)I woke up and headed to the airport,i was excited yet apprehensive. I was going to London, and for the first time in my life i travel for the purpose of work (internship). I have done lots of work experience/volunteer work throughout my life,but i never did any work experience in the field of law so i had mixed feelings and there was the usual questions: will i be able to mannage? After few mintues i decided to let go of these thoughts. I had a full day before i even had to go to work as my internship was to start on the 9th. I got to London at around 5.20pm, went through check in,and was out in a flash but decided to wait for my cousins/their friends who were on a tranist stop in London to go to Canada.It took them awhile to be checked in,they were all under 16. They got a 24 hour visa and left to a hotel for the night. I had my dad's friend waiting for me and my brother,and mom. Yes my mom tagged along(and im glad she did). It was supposed to be just me and my brother but then my mom decided to come along as well. We were in the car for almost 2 hours if not abit more. There was some sort of a march(maseera) and the roads were either closed or crowded so it took us about the time we spent on flight to get to our place. We stayed at burwood/marple arch. I was surprised/astonished/amazed/ at the number of muslims and specifically at the number of people from the gulf. I remember my amazment went as far as texting my dad, and asking him did he by any chance send me to the gulf? and went on to msg my sister and tell her that im not in London. I have lived in other western countries but have never seen that many muslims in one place (mashallah). It felt like home. Arabic was everywhere, and on my first and second day i heard very little English spoken. I had to remind myself every now and then that im in an English speaking country!! The first day, i got to our place really tired and exahusted and had little energy to do anything, so i just went out for the purpose of eating something and getting home to sleep...little did i know that many times i'd just do,go home from work,freshen up,go eat then come home!I had my cousin, khalti and her husband on a visit(they got there few days before us) in London so we met up on our second day in London (8/7/07)-Sunday. It was a day for us to get fimiliar with our area and explore the surroundings. We spent all day at edgware,going from one store to another. I was supposed to get a new formal black trousers to wear at work but wasnt in the mood of trying things out...so i just looked around and ended up buying nothing that day. We took breaks every now and then at my cousin's hotel at the business launch or at our place. Whenever we get tired, we go to the closest place. After a long day we went to maroush,a lebenese resaturant (which had lots of branches but we went to the one that has nice tables and looks more formal. We had a wonderful chat together and eat Lebenese food. I love Lebenese food especially "waraq al 3enab" -vine leaves and all their salads!!Then it was 9/7/07 (Monday). It was my first official day of work. I woke up at around 7:30am,got myself ready, and woke up my brother at around 8:30 so we could go to train station at around 9:00am and get our oyster card. My dad's friend tagged along to show us the way ( barak alahu feeh,he did more then he should walahi). So we purchased our one week tickects and headed to aldegate. It was a formal business area. Everyone was dressed in suits except my brother(he felt out of place,he said). I got to the firm (Holman Fenwick and Willan) at around 10 to 15am. This firm is so historical it has been there sicne 1880s and was founded by the Holman family.At work i was given a temperoray card (to scan through doors so i can go into the firm and same process to get out)so movie style, all these secuirty stuff!!! A. Cornner from HR was waiting for me and other vaction students (thats what i was called- a vaction student) and toured us around the firm and gave us instructions fire alram/emergency and all the normal procedures and asked us to be dressed formally, and we were already dressed according to standereds, we were also asked to sign a contract stating that everything we hear at the firm we forget at the firm,and thats only right because there are lots of confidential information and it needs to remain as such. Then i was introuduced to D. Honey,the lawyer i have been in contact with through e-mail but never seen in real life until then, he was my main surprovisor. He welcomed me to the firm and gave me a long case to read through i was showed to my office (orginally it belongs to another solicter who was away on a business trip) which happened to be across from J.Clanchy a solicter who has done lots of work in North Africa and specifically Libya. On my first day of work,the company took me to Lunch at a restaurant called Assembly. It was an alright experience. I had a nice chat with my fellow coworkers. There were four of them and i was the fifth. We talked about everything, from Libya to France to Canada. They gave me an overview of what it is like to work at a law firm. Then we headed back to our firm,and i continued reading the case and making notes. So my first day reminded me of my exam period. Then i went home,freshened up,and went out to my cousin's hotel chatted together and then my dad's friend brought his daughter and took me and my brother on a tour (the same route that the tour bus takes) and i got to see tons of places from the comfort of the car such as the Big pen,Buckingham palace,Harrods,Chalers place,the road that was name after the English's victory over the Spanish,and many more places which i took pics off..we had a nice walk around the river and the tour ended,,,then i got home,,,and i went to Pizza Hut with my brother and mom..After that we headed home and slept.10/7/07 (Tuesday)My day started at around 7:30am. I woke up got ready,waited until it was 8:30 am and woke up my bro to tag along with me. My mom had an underground phobia and was worried someone would beat me up or something, she said if i wanted to go alone that i should use the bus. Ofcourse, that was out of the question. Cuz with buses i'd have to calculate the time loss of the traffic and would have to make it up by waking up few hours earlier (no thanks). That was a no way. So my poor bro tagged along!! Got to work, and contuined reading the case. Then i was asked to stop reading and assist them with getting the doucments/proves in order,and review the calculations of a case that has the 1oth as its deadline.I quickly scanned through the case and got stright to work. i did what i was asked and i had so much fun doing it. Then it was lunch time, and i went to Eat--it was a horrible experience. Bad choice!!I drank my coca and left the sandwich on the tray. Oh remembering it makes me wanna throw up--excuse moi! Then i went to my cousin's hotel, chatted and then went out and checked the shops. Again, i was just tagging along,i didnt purchase anything,then i asked my cousin/aunt/mom to go eat at Pizza Hut, i was hungry so i didnt want to go to any place to try out, i wanted something i already knew. We ate and then we each headed home. We were too tired to do anything, and epsecially me. I was dead tired!11/7/07 (Wednesday)Just the usuall routine, i went to work, continued reading on the case i was given the first day as it was a hugh case, and i was asked to do a research about Corporate Manslaughter/Coporate Killing. I took a break from reading the case and did the research, then i discussed my findings with my fellow coworker. After getting that done i got another case to read and highlight certian information, which i did happily. Then it was lunch time, this time i went with my coworker Clare to starbucks (again i was going for fimilair places). I'm a pickky eater so its hard for me to enjoy just anything. I ate abit and left the rest because they had something in there that i couldnt eat. I drank my orange juice and chatted with my coworker about Libya, her travels,mine,and the firm. I had an amazing time, with exception to my sandwich i enjoyed my lunch time:P I headed back to work and continued reading the case until it was time to go home. My dad was to arrive to London on Wednesday so i went home and found a msg from his international cell (happymoi whats for dinner today?) i replied (dad resturants are everywhere,and you get to choose)...So we waited for him, and went to my cousin's hotel,we had a good chat and said goodbye to them cuz they were leaving in the morning and headed to Maroush,the lebenese resturant i mentioned earlier. We had shish tawooq(main course),in addition to some appetizers and mine was ofcourse vine leaves:) waraq al enab:)..Then we headed home and slept.12/7/07Work had a different falvour on the 12th.I was given a new case to highlight certain information (a 10 pages case, no as long as the first case i was given)...in addition to that, I was asked to attend a workshop lunch with my coworkers which i did happily and the workshop was about "whats a ship"...it was alright, the food (oh no) i dont even want to remember. It was club sandiwiches and i mean im fine with them, at least i used to be fine with them...but oh god, i grabbed a cheese club sandwich and walahi i had to fill my cup with water so i could force my self to finish it...Cuz everyone's plate was full except mine and i didnt want my coworkers to think i didnt like the lunch, cuz it would be rude so i forced my self into eating that sandwich!! what an experience:(! I head home as hungry as wolf!! I asked my mom to join me to the Spaghttie house. I wanted some real food and so i went there. It was good and the waiter was so much fun, i gave the waiter a good tip for his sense of humor and his service!! After that i checked some stores out, they had only an hour and were going to close so i quickly looked through and i bought some souviners for myself.13/7/07It was my last day of work and i got to just about four pages to finish the huge case i was given on my first day. I completed that and done a summary of it. Then my coworker told me to come with him to court which i gladly accepted. The building was amazing. It is so victorian. I loved it. I went to the court of Appeal in which everyone was wearing wigs, and a trail of a murderer was in session. An appeal trial. The convict was in a box and had his head down. It was a creepy feeling being the same room with a murderer! I aslo went to commerically related trial..I went to the court garden (and no it wasnt a real graden) it was an indoor garden had chaires/like a rest area for lawyers but indoors. I had fun, lots of fun there. Then my coworkers took me to lunch at this place which i forgat what it was called, and i had a good lunch, a good chat with my fellow coworkers!!Then it was time to get back to work. I finished all my tasks and was waiting for the final discussion of my week,my case, and everything and i did that with my surprivisor. Then it was time to head home, i said my goodbyes and thank yous and i was given the contact information of my fellow workers, the ones i spent most of my time with (D. Honey, J. Clanchy,S. Salimi-pour). Overall, my work experience was amazing. I will talk about my last day in London (in which i did the going all over the place tour)...but for now, my entry is long enough...Pics will be posted as soon as i get the phoner connecter!Thats an account of my work experience...The rest later:)

Alhamdullah: 4th year here i come :-) rororororeyyy

Alhamdullah!! My results turned out wonderful. Alhamdullah!!Alhamdullah!! i passed all my courses, including the course i was so afriad of (Happymoi high fives self:P). To my surprise i did exceptionally well on it on my final exam. (How did i screw up on my midterm?i'm not so sure!-that will remain a mystry) I'm still at the disbelief stage. This year was one of the toughest school years for me,and for everything to work out at the end is just wonderful. Alhamdullah. I'm still puting my thoughts down about my trip.So be patient,

ALhamdullah as many times as there are human beings on this earth

and even more so. Alhamdullah! I'm so happy. All that studying didnt go to waste:):):) I was told that i got top student, i havent seen that yet but i'll take my friend's words. The list of rankings isnt yet composed by the school so my friend just checked our averages and said i was top (ofcourse im thrilled:)). I'm not too worried about rankings and all because for me passing criminal law was a mircal... Really the exams for that course were hell on earth!! I'm so greatful i passed it. YAY celebration time:)

While talking about results: Congrats to my friend Mo for graduating, i knew you'd get far! Mashallah! Congrats to all grads of 07. To my classmates and friends: mabrook al naja7:)

I just thought i share with everyone the best moment of the day!! ALhamdullah:)

Happymoi is BACK:)

Thank you all for your comments!

I'm too tired now so i wont be saying much!!

I'm back to Tripoli....I have been in London for nine days not five (it seems everyone has been mislead by the date i posted my entry). I just didnt log into the net until the 10th so yeah. I have done what i could, my internship went well, although i must say it has stood many times in the way of my tours,nevertheless,i have enjoyed my stay in London. More to come later:)

I'm in London right now. Things are really busy. I dont have that much time to go online!! More to come later probably when im back to Tripoli which will be inshallah on the 15th.

I miss you all tons. Have a wonderful time!

Health Nightmare [not care]

On December,2006 my aunt's husband got a stroke which left him half paralyzed. He was under going treatment and was getting better. He got to the point of being able to walk. Only to get sick again on a Friday June30,2007 night at around 12am. The thing about getting sick on a Friday night in Libya is that no doctors are on hospitals. None whatsoever. No one. Its as if no one gets sick on Fridays. It is as if this day is a holiday from "it" all. Reality says other wise. Imagine this, my uncle was sick. He was being taken from one hospital to another,no hospital was ready to take him because he was in an awful state. HELLOOOOOO what are hospitals for if they are going to keep saying we cant take him, his state is way over us. What is going on?? So the family ended up taking him to al sbea3a hospital which is around an hour drive away.Can you believe it. Can you believe it? The worst is yet to come. After a one hour drive no doctors were available at the that specialized heart hospital. That's when the family decided to use its connections. Imagine..calling people they knew so they could locate a doctor to have a look at my aunt's husband. He was placed in intensive care unit, and what an intensive care it was. He was supposed to stay for 24 hours,but was placed out less then 12 hours later? !!! What the hell???!! really. I mean he was in a miserable state, closer to death then life how on earth did they see him improve? An educated decision was made to get him out of Libya, to the now famous Libyan new hospitals (TUNISIA), now there is a "tones" phobia cuz its equated with being sick. Yup it was that bad. Now at least he is receiving the treatment he deserves, he is taken good care of, at least in terms of "keeping him in intensive care unit". It really saddens me that we are where we are. We are a rich country, we deserve good hospitals. I not only blame the health care system but i also blame the doctors for their heartless actions. At least have the decency to be there when it is your shift. 7aram 3alekum goes to all the doctors out there. Ok so in my family's case we were able to take him to Tunisia with an emergency plane, what about others who cant? or is it that no one really cares anymore?? Walahi my heart was torn on Friday night, the whole family was in a disastrous state. The problem is, the pain of having someone you know get hurt wasnt enough, the health care system +doctors had to add "insult to injury"...my dad vowed we are moving as soon as he can...i don't blame him for making such a vow. He was awaken from his sleep in the middle of the night and was searching for a hospital along with everyone else.In Germany, if a doctor was on holiday (HOLIDAY) and happen to pass by a sick person on the street and didnt help him his license would be rovoked, why dont we impose such a thing in Libya? well ba3deen we wont have any licenced doctors! Rabi yuster wa kalas. May Allah heal all those sick and those healthy keep them so. Pray for my aunt's husband to get well soon. At the end, i hope that doctors enjoy their Friday zarada "picnic" knowing that others are dying because of their reckless act and lack of commitment.

14 years ago,i abandoded this fruit (hehe)

There was a rule in my family that when business guests are around, or any other guest for that matter that none of us (the kids) should enter the room. We followed the rules,and things were going smoothly. Until one day, my uncle had business guests over for lunch and we (my cousin S, My cousin F and Me) decided that we should take a little risk and see what happens. Well, we saw baskets of fruits going to the guest room and we wanted some. We thought,(we didnt really think cuz otherwise we would have walked to the kictchen if we used our brain) walking to the guest room was closer then walking to the kitchen. And on we entered. Ofcourse, we were treated with smiles and welcomes even from the rule makers (my uncles). Then, we started passing by each fruit basket and only collecting bananas. I don't know how we did it but we did. Then we said goodbye to the guests and knew breaking the law has consequences and so we were waiting for our dear uncle to come along.

He was so creative in his punishment. He brought a box full of bananas. And told us we had to eat it all. If any of you seen Matilda (the part where the boy had to eat a huge chocolate cake), you would know what we thought at first and what actually would take place. Well for those who didn't see Matilda, we thought cool idea! We started eating,little did we know, that it was impossible for 3 of us to finish all that. I was sick from eating them. But my uncle insisted we continue, so next time when we want something we'd go to the kitchen and not embarrass him in front of the guests. From that day on, i can never touch a banana, never set in a sofra with Banana in it,never pick up a plate that has bananas on it. Thinking about it, i cant stop laughing. This happened 14 years ago, and i still have a banana phobia. I keep telling my uncle, that he was the reason i cant eat bananas anymore. That he was the reason i cant pick his plate of banana and that he has to pick it up on his own. He laughs so hard but he doesn't recall it. He keeps saying did i really do that. I love my uncle. Now i can always run away from cleaning anything that has banana on it:P:P:P Thanks Uncle. LOL
Have a wonderful day everyone:):)

This month, many years ago,---------------------

It was June. I remember i walked up the stairs. I found my parents bedroom open. I went in with a smile on my face. I saw my dad. He was wiping his hand,about to pray. I remember where i was standing. I remember everything as if it is happening now. I checked on my sister. She was asleep. Wait a minute. I wasn't sure if she was asleep. Her face was a mixture of green,blue.She didn't look normal to me. I brought this to the attention of my father. He asked me to leave the room. My heart beats werent normal anymore. I realized something was really wrong. I didn't want to leave. I left but stood out in the corner of the hall between my parent's room and the other rooms. I heard my father call my uncle. My uncle had a black bag in his hand and he walked straight into my parents room. He was checking on my sister. Then my dad called my mom. My mom came up the stairs. She had a mug in her hand. She entered the room. She had this look i shall never forget. Then she was in tears. She had her face covered with both of her hands. I knew then, that my sister was gone.But my uncle was a doctor,if my sister was sick he could help her right? I was a kid,that's what i thought then.But nope.He couldn't.He didn't. Our house turned into a funeral home. Then i realized that there was no way my sister is coming back. I still remember she was wearing a cute pink outfit. I remember everything and i was only a kid then. Many years have passed. I never talked about it with anyone. Not even to my own parents. True, i was a kid,but i understood the pain my parents were enduring, and wasn't about to make them feel worse. I kept my feeling about my sister's death deep within me. I never told anyone about her death. People whom i knew after this incident never knew i lost a sister. I just couldn't tell anyone. It was way too painful. Then there was school, when i went back kids were pointing at me and saying she lost her sister. Some even teased me about it. I still remember their faces. I still remember where i was standing when the kids were talking about my sister's death. I understand now that they were kids, they didn't understand how hurt i was. But then i was a kid too,and i didn't know how to deal with her loss. I never forgot being the first to see her dead. It is really weird that after all these years i have decided to blog about it. Never did i do that in the past. Never. It was something forbidden. As if talking about her meant her death was more real. But it was real. It was "al qadar". Now, i see my cousin who happens to be a year younger then her and i say if she was alive she would have been this year, or that. She would have shared a room with me. She would have....she would have......

It is really hard when you lose someone. But moving on is a must. Moving on doesn't mean you don't like them anymore. I told that to my friend who recently lost her brother in a car crash, because she was planning to put her life on hold FOREVER she'd never go back to university and that basically she would stop living. This was the only time i brought to anyone that i lost a sister. I told her, moving on is part of life,it has nothing to do with stopping our love for those whom we lost. Death is essential thing in our life, and if her bro was alive he would have wanted her to continue to live her life,just like my sister would have. So never take anything for granted,not even the fights you have with your siblings. Really, I'm serious. Bordem would take over,if we didn't have ups and downs in our life. If everything was all happy,then we wouldn't learn the value of being happy. Don't feel sad for me, or sorry. It is totally ok. I'm ok.I miss her, and that is only normal...I know well enough that we are but passengers in this life,and any given moment we'll leave. I wish for that moment to be when we are ready to face Allah. Last, but not least never stop telling those you love, that you love them. I love you all. Alhamdullah.