Happymoi's latest.

El7amdala. Everything is going well for me so far. Wednesday was absoultly wonderful.

My♥ ♥ grandma ♥ ♥ has been out of the hospital for 3 days now. I have been there on Tuesday, and Wednesday.. I'm glad my grandmother is doing well. I didnt go today. I would love to see my grandma everyday but i just can't handle the amount of people coming in and out, in and out. I don't enjoy being around such environment for so long. I get sick of the routine of non stop visitors. I'm a very sociable person, but i like balance in everything. 'Don't over do something' -> that is me.

I'm still working on my papers, there is alot of progress el7amdala. So i do hope that my paper work gets done soon. For now i'll keep working on them (more like running after everyone). Pray that my papers get done soon, or at least most of them.

I applied for traning at LIA in the legal department, i went and saw everyone, and now im waiting for them to let me know when they'd like me to come. I'm still waiting though. At the same time, i have handed in my file for the TA. I just have to do the blood test (normal routine when getting a job) and the testomoney (that i dont work anywhere else kind of paper) . So in addition to my scholarship related papers and i have these two papers to deal with. But they arent hard to get. .

If all worked well, it will be 5-6 months before i leave to the US for my masters. I just want to get some work experience before i travel, and im ok with working even if not paid.My focus now is on building my skills- not on getting paid. Your duaa is much needed.

Just school related bllllllaaaaaaaaahs;)

Yesterday, i was shown on TV. I was giving the speech, but it was muted, and the channel had a person speaking about the event while showing my pictures. I didnt see it though, memebers of my extended family did. I was told it would be at 11pm, and when i didnt find it exactly on the time mentioned i just left the room to run few errands. So after i left, my uncles,cousins and dad told me that i was on TV. My lack of patience ahhhh!! lol...well i just didnt feel like waiting, and i was like oh well i was there.

Life has been going alright lately. I'm very happy that i have dropped out of the masters program here. It was hectic for me. I wasnt comfortable with some of the professors, and it was so hard getting resources as our university lacks good libararies. My parents were telling me that i would put my self in a tough position as i wont find material to do my research etc...but being hard minded if i may say, i had to enrol. I found out that they were right. I made the descion of dropping out after the scholarship became official. So i hope things do work out. The plan is to go in Jan2010 if i got accepted. So inshallah khair. I don't know what is in store for me. I sure pray that i will get to study abroad. I really want to get my masters done. I do love school. I love learning in general. I know it is not always easy, and sometimes i do wish i was free to do other things, but at the end, school means alot to me. So yes i want to do my masters. Yes i want if life allows me to do my Phd too. Pray for me everyone. I guess i have lots set up for myself and the happiest moment for me would be when i achieve those goals. Stay tunned;)

I'll be on TV tonight =)

Today was my graduation ceremoney. A year ago was my actual graduation date. I'm a grad of 2008. Our law school didnt have a graduation ceremoney for so long. Our graduation marks the 20th year that our law school has been in session. So yay for us!!! =D =D

If you want to know who happymoi is, check the lebeya channel الليبية at 11pm. =) =) If my speech was shown, let me know what you think...it was done in a hurry because i was notified the evening before. Enjoy!

For the record, my dad, my uncle S, my bro, my cousin T, my fiance, and my sister were present at the ceremoney. Mom couldnt make it because she is with my grandmother at the hospital. She did phone though.

Good step, law school! I wished it was done the same year, but i think it is a step in the right direction.

Last mintue notification- IM GIVING A SPEECH ON THE CEREMONEY!!!!

A year after my actual graduation, my university is holding a graduation ceremoney. Few days ago i was notified of its date, and few mintues ago i was notified that i would be giving a speech!!! Well because i will be representing my fellow law schoolers. So last mintue!!! My friend suggested a word for me, and i'm looking at it. If it was in English i would have easily written it. It comes to me so naturally. But in Arabic, it requires so much thinking. The Arabic language is so beautiful. There are lots of choices, lots of unique words, lots of expressions, and sooooooooo much grammar:S:S:S:S

What am i to doooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo?!!!!! Whats the best way to start a speech...is it advised that i take the not sooo traditional root? OMG what am i going to do. I dont want to look so foolish.....arghhhhhhhh! Stay toned to see me on TV :S:S

I'm not readyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!

One mind, Two mindes- your thoughts?!

I have always done things the way i wanted them. My parents are very open minded. I know where the red lines lay, and so i have had the freedom to make choices, and decisions about everything. My parents would put up the advice, and its in my hand to make the final choice. They have done the right thing, and although many times i have wished that someone else would make the decision for me, but i have grown up with knoweldge of how tough it is to make a decision, and how to make a decision regardless of how tough it may be.

The final decision was always mine, and mine alone. Now i'm not alone anymore. Anything that comes up has to discussed and decided with two minds. Mine, and that of my fiance. It is so harrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrd. It takes so much effort to get to the point of making a decision. So was it right that i have had this freedom to make decisions from the time i was old enough? or was it a good step, meaning you start by knowing how hard it is to make a decision, then after getting used to that you learn how two can come up with a decision with both interests in mind? I have to be convinced to agree, i cant just agree. My brain wont process. So if you dont convince me, dont even bother thinking i would take your stand. That is making it so hard for me. Because sometimes i just never get convinced, and the decsion process becomes tougher than it already is.

Any thoughts?

How much are you willing to let go for the sake of those you love? where should you draw the line? How can you not loose your asprirations, your dreams,your goals and at the same time not loose your love? Do you ever have to make the choice between your love, and your goals? What if both are of the same importance?

Waiting for your comments.

My beloved grandma undergoing a surgery right now:S:S

I'm writing this and my grandma is in the hopsital. She is undergoing a surgery at this moment. Many of you would think how senseless of me to set and right at this point in time. Well the answer is, i feel so scared. It was all a sudden thing. I was at my university doing my papers all of this morning. Then, i got back home to find my mom in tears. Dad wasnt back from his trip at the time of my arrival. My legs were shivering at the sight of my mom. The Libyan way is the whole truth of the situation is never told. So everytime something happens, i dont trust what i hear. I always feel that things are bigger than they sound. My mom was told that my grandmother will undergo surgery tomorrow. My sister and i told mom that we have a feeling it is today and that her bro didnt tell her just so she wont get worried. Right we were. It is today. It is right now as im typying this letter. Dad arrived, and we were all in tears when we first saw him, so we havent dealt right with the situation, i had to hold a grip and say that everything is alright, and that my grandma is fine. It is just that her leg hurted her abit and so shes undergoing surgery for it. We should have been stronger. It is not right the way we welcomed dad, but im sure he understands. Now dad and my bro went to the hopsital. They didnt take me with them. I want to go too. I don't feel ok at the moment. As i said i feel soooooooo scared. No one would understand. I just want to go see her. My fiance is there too. I just messgaged him and asked him to contact me right away when my grandma is out of the surgery room. If anyone reads this please please please pray for her. Pray that everything goes smoothly and that she will be fine.

Summer time, swimming time (muscle cramps:S:S)

The weather is getting warmer and warmer each day. This could only mean one thing; the time has come to jump in the pool. We have a swimming pool at our farm, and for the past two weeks we have been going for a swim on Fridays. I love to swim. I especially love to swim when the sun is still shinning. My cousins tend to avoid swimming during duhr time just out of fear they would get dark. They say 'we have weddings coming up, we should swim around 5pm or so' . The things is, i dont really care. Even if i was the bride i wouldnt care. For me, the most important thing is that i have a good time. So this past friday, it was only me and my little cousins in the pool. The rest were under a shade watching from distance. So i had a good time. I have one issue, i get muscle cramps while swimming all the time. It happend to me in Canada, and it is happening to me here! In Canada, i wasnt so scared of it because there was always a life gurad and whenever it occurs i have been rescued out and given oxygen and all that is necessary. Here though, we dont have a life gurad, it is not a public pool so yeah. This Friday i didnt get any muscle cramps because what i did was swim for one round, rest for few mintues, then do another round. Then rest. Then walk around the water, then swim for another round.I'm not a perfect swimer, but i'm ok. I dont know all the ways. Unlike my mom, she is a perfect swimer. She just lots abit of her speed due to her lack of practice. Anyways, after 20 mintues or so of being at the pool i got out of the pool because i thought i better get out before my muscles cramp. They did the Friday before this (after 20 mintues of swim time to be exact). It was me and my two cousins swimming, i was teaching my cousin this easy way of swimming but after reapting the way for few times my muscles cramped. The good news was, that both of my cousins were around me, and we werent in the deep end. So one held my foot and stablized it so it wont move, and the other pulled me from my hand until i got to build in seats at the babies end. I sat crying the pain out. But at least i was safe. So did any of you ever experiences muscle cramps? for me, it happens all the time, and it is painfullllllllllllllll. It is very painful. I would drawn so easily even at the shallow water. My height is 1.70 i could stand rasing my toes a little at the end of the pool and be able to breath easily (that works if i got tired from swimming) but if my muscle cramps occurs i would drawn period. What should i do? anyone knows?