Choco & Me

YUMMYYYYYY

I know what you are thinking! Forgive me please for posting this cake but i must. My little sister, yes my litte sister made a chocolate cake. She woke up so early and made it, and its in the frige, why did i have to check on the frige? Now i cant wait for magrib. I'm not very patient to start with. I act like a little kid: mom when is magrib? amta al magrib? Then my sister added to that by making this chocolate cake so early in the morning.

I woke up 1pm and the smell of the chocolate cake is sweeping through the house. I had to go back to sleep or something would happen to me. Chocolate cake isnt just the only reason. For some reason i dont feel too well today & im not sick or anything. I feel so dizzy. I dont feel hungry but i feel dizzy. Now im better,but i feel that my head is so heavy.

Yesterday, i went to my grandma's house, i had a blast. I just love visiting my grandma. She was so thrilled to see me & my siblings. I love you granny! I also saw my aunt there which was nice.

I miss my brother tons. Two days ago we had an online webcam talk and i could see tears in his eyes. Walahi i miss him halba/wajed! We all miss you bro. We talked about you at granny. We are just not used to parting with each other. Dont worry bro, we'll visit you inshallah soon. You just foucs on your school, and take good care of yourself. Cousin S will be joing him soon. So hopfully that will make things easier for my bro.

Hope you all are having a blast!

Welcome dad, N Goodbye bro

Things have gotten a little busy with me lately!
Yesterday my daddy came home from Omraa-taqballa Allah Dad. He said his flight was so close to actually crashing, him and my uncle were together, and i have never seen them as happy to be alife and well. Alhamdullah 3ala salama! Just hearing how their flight was gave chills through my spine.

Then today, it was time to say good bye to my brother. Usually our faith is one, if we move we move together, but now with everyone getting older things have become so much different. My bro who is almost 3 years younger is moving to London to finish his last year of Business admisntration. We'll miss him dearly. I cant imagine how my life would be without him around. He was filling in for my dad everytime dad was away. He does everything for the house. Now all i got to say, i wish you a safe trip, and best of luck on your studies. i'm gonna miss you tons!

Other than that, i have only been out once all of this Ramadan. It was a nice thing to do for a change!

I have a plan to go visit my grandma from my mom's side so hopfully i will do that soon. I really miss her! We didnt see each other since Ramadan started. My bro was gonna take me with him on his goodbye tour yesterday but then my mom told me it would easier if he went alone. And she promised she'd tagg along with me to granny, and my aunts soon. Cant wait:)

I wish everyone a happy day;
ahhhh: when is magrib gonna come along?!!!

Our Ramadan,my laziness and story of survival:P

I have become sooooooooo lazy! I need school to get my act together hehe! Well not really. I really dont want school to start yet. Not in Ramadan for sure. I need my hours of sleep,my time to read Quran, and sleep again.I need the stress free time! Good news: i'm getting all that cuz my school wont start until after Eid. Thats the way law school is. THANK GOD!

My family during Ramadan isnt like any other and i mean it! We dont go out at all (well almost never). We dont stay up late either. We pray Trwawee7 all together at home, and sleep right after. I dont really sleep right after but the mood at home is just quiet and sleepy. No visitors, at least none so far! People just know our routine and think we are soo not normal! I dont blame them. Today my cousin from mom's side was supposed to come, but she text me early this morning saying she cant make it. The night before she phoned(i asked her to come & insisted-i miss her) and shes like happymoi: are you sure i can come cuz u know my parents wont come back to pick me up until like 1,1:30am. I replied cousin dont worry, i'll stay up with you..she replied: are you sure you wont be counting the mintues for me to leave...lol i seriously wont. Its not me that created the routine its the way my parents are!
Day number one of the month of Ramadan was such a toughy, i was barely able to walk towards the last half hour before mag'rib adan!I'm no even exaggorating. You see i didnt wake up for suhoor that day (as a matter of fact i never wake up for suhoor) i get my glass of water in my bed just for the baraka of suhoor, and i didnt bother having dinner the night before Ramadan started so i was so close to fainting and stayed in bed till it was time to break my fast. Its the same story every year on my first day of Ramadan. I just act like a little kid, and start asking when is magrib when is magrib!!
I havent cooked anything with exception to frying boreek the past two days. Other than that i just basically do nothing. I'm such a not fala7a! Thats the painful truth!

Ramadan Mubarak :-)

Happy Ramadan EVERYONE

Thoughts Dubai:)

Life is but a journey, that is so true. It passes by so quickly,it is as if time flys.Well is flying consdered fast? Its been 3 days for me here, and it really feels as if i have just arrived! I guess maybe thats why this analgoy exists. Every journey has a begining, and life too has a beegining. Ok whats goiing on happymoii? i dont know,im so relaxed,,i mean im typying from the comfort of my bed,looking stright aheead at thee tv plasma which functions as both a tv and a computer screen...anyways,the point is reflection time is best done during ones vacation...youu just blend having fun with relaxtion...ahh, my bed feels so ccomffortable, room service is good,no chores to be done, ahh whaat if our life wass like that all thee ttime? nah i wwouldnt wwant it to be so, u kknow why cuz i wwouldnt feel the joy of having time off eveerything....now i feel blessed,well i have alwas felt blessed,but someehow, wheen you aree on a vacation you always feel eeven moree so blessed...but u kknow whats weird? is that when i c the ppl serving us i keep thinking how do theyy feel? imeean them working on a hhotel theey can only dream of sleeping in,they can barely offored to live, let all think of a vacation....i keep aasking, does he/shee have kids? does he/she resent us?do they think its unfair that they are serving us? but then i tell myself that wee eeach have aa job in this world, and no onee iis far from being the server instead of the reciver of the service....so while being served i shhouuld only treat the service ppl wwithe respect i wwouuld want to have if i ever eended up ddoing their job.....foor the maaintime...i sshall eenjoy dubai,my vacation homee for thee passt three yeears n every yyeear i come i experience the changes....its been awesomee so far,,,lots to do but wont rush to anythng...afteerall its my ttime off:)

Vacation Time (YAYAY)

I have been really busy lately...and today will be yet another busy day!!!

This past friday i was in a zarda,i.e picnic! I had a good time, and it was a change of the routine cuz instead of going with my dad's side of the family i went with my mom's side of the family. Sunday, i went to a gathering at my uncle's place, i had fun there and i met a friend whom i havent seen since i was in 8th grade. Yesterday, i had two of my university friends over,and i had a splendid time! Today, i have one of my friends coming over, and tomorrow i'm out of here! You read it right:)

YES.....UAE here i come:)

Goodbye tripoli for now, its our vacation time:) I'm so excited...I'm going to miss everyone im sure. I will try to blog from there if i got a chance. I just thought i let you all know so no one would be worried over my disapperance:P

Ksad.....& Toni Macguire

I don't know why i feel that summer is one of the busiest seasons for me. I seem to have too little time for anything, yet I'm always complaining of "ksad". Ksad is a common Libyan word, it is often used during the summer, because as busy as things get, there is always a room for --I'm bored, it is boring!When you have so much to do, the word ksad shouldn't be used but then i use it anyways. It is really ksad!!

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I have finished two books this previous week, by Toni Macguire, Don't Tell Momy & When Dad Comes Home and its her getting personal about her years of being molested by her own father. I was inspired by her courage, her ability to look at the brighter side, her determination and her hard work. Many times, when i read for her i felt like kicking him, i don't even want to think of him as her father, as he doesn't deserve being one. The word father is too precious for ppl of his kind. At times, i felt i was reading fiction because my brain just didn't want to disgust the idea that such a thing took place, i wanted to hold Toni, and hug her during her younger years when everyone else was rejecting her for what she has gone through, when her own doctor looked in her eyes and gave her the nasty look(when her own father got her pregnant at the age of 14), and i wanted to be her friend when everyone rejected her. I wanted to give her shelter, to pull her out from the monster she lived with. But i didn't exist then, and even if i had what is there to assure me that i would have taken anything different then those surrounding her? I kept imagining myself being Derek or her teacher would i have helped her? I kept asking myself? or would i have been so rejecting like everyone else?